Redneck Undercover [Feeling Low]

June 24th, 2009

IIII won't worry my life awayyyyy...


What an fantastically rotten birthday. I'm feeling incredibly ditched. I thought I'd give people a little time, you know, to at least call today. No such luck. I was too far away from Earth yesterday to realize how suckish it was, really. My sister left for the night, no HB greeting. Dad said it once, the scarfed my brownies. Brittany and Amanda did call and come over, which made me stop crying at least. Blair didn't call, along with quite a few others. Ky called today with a HB, Buffy wished me HB three days in a row, ha ha. NO texts, a few scare messages on Myspace. I guess it was mostly Rachel's behavior that had me down, and the fact that Blair up and went to Florida, without telling me or calling or anything. I mean, all my exes remembered and not her? Jeez.

As for today, my sister was even more bitch-fest. She finally got home at 4:30 and didn't say a word until she screamed in my and my mom's face about an open can in her room. ..What?

I felt very redneck today. I'm 17 now, chillin at the pool smokin', drinkin', listening to country and riding home in the back of a huge red truck, sun beating down and smile on my face [until Rachel's glare broke my spirit.] Oh well.

I thought this year would be different... that someone would make it really special for me, other than my mom, gosh bless her soul.

Blowin' through the jazz band in my minddd...

I Now Pronounce Thee 'Sick As A Bitch'

May 5th, 2009


Today I was at home, drifting in and out of consciousness and trying not to sleep the whole time. I am currently very sick, no I do not have swine flu, and I was doped up on medicine 2 times the normal strength. I played a little Fallout 3 and Oblivion, I didn't eat much and slept quite a bit. I don't want to go to school tomorrow either.. it's going to be hell doing SOL's in this condition.

After lounging all day long, but before Alateen, I proposed to my BFF, Brittany with a ring I bought her from walmart. But, she ended up being allergic to nickel and not being able to war it :'[ Oh well.

I wish life was like Oblivion, like medieval times, cept magical powers and such existed. I'd be a vampire battle mage living in the realm of madness, doing mind altering drugs and painting and singing. I'd kill in secret for money and have like, 20 kids. My marriage would be all celtic and spiritual; My house would be a huge mansion on the sea shore. My dad would have died in some great war, and my mom would live with me, and we would have grummite eggs and greenmote wine for breakfast every day.

Oh, the wonders of cough medicine.

At Alateen my old friend Robert got his 30 days chip in AA, and I got a free 2 liter of Dr.Pepper, and a very cute kitty came to play with us. That's about it.

-Doped up and Dying, Dani

April Showers Brought May Flowers

May 1st, 2009

Today;

I decided since I didn't feel good this morning I'd fake being even more sick to stay out. My dad bought it and I went to lay back down, then he wanted to go to the school to get my work, so I decided to go in so he wouldn't find out my real grades. Went in, thought I had Friday Focus but ended up not, made it past lunch to Japanese but I felt really bad, and my mom surprise came and got me, so I got to come home and chill out which was nice, because I did sincerely feel rotten, still do right now. It's like a haze is just all around my head and in my eyes, it sucks.

And oh my gosh, as soon as I walked in the door coming back from my neighbor's house for a bit, I asked my dad if I could hang out with two friends tomorrow for a few hours, and I told him all the information and then I said they could come get me because they drive, to save him and my mom a trip, and he flipped out and was like 'blah blah blah there's a law against that' and 'these cocky ass kids are gonna get you killed blah blah' and etc. And all I did was be nice agree, then he was like 'sorry i'm an asshole I over reacted' and then he went right back to bitching! i swear, its enough to make me wanna move in with Red! Augh!

Major events coming up;

May 14th; Brittany's 17th B-day
May 26th; Braces come off
June 2nd; Get retainer
June 3rd; Nathaneal's 17th B-day
June 8th; First Gynecologist appointment ever D;
June 15th- Mom's 46th B-day
June 16th; Last day of school
June 23rd; My 17th B-day :]

So there's a lot going on. Sun day were supposed to be going to a flee market in Richmond, and even though it'll be with my dad, it's very exciting for me, as I seriously love thrift shopping for clothes and accesories. Toodles.

-Daniiiii