June 27th, 2010
Wow.
It's been a while, blogspot.
Hmm,
well it's not 2009 anymore. Bummer.
So and update and some thoughts are in order.
I am now the blessedly confusing age of 18. I am a high school graduate, I am a girlfriend, I am alone. Kind of.
It's a peculiar feeling, my life now. No more school drama, no more struggling to pass, no more waking up at 4:30 in the morning. There are hundreds of kids- 600 to be exact- exactly in the same boat I am; not adults, but not kids, stuck in-between one life and another. The door has been thrust wide open, at last, in front of me, and I stand before it dumbstruck and in awe like never before. There are so many ways I can go, so many paths and turns and desicions to be made. It's overwhelming, soothing, alarming, and natural- all at the same instant.
As of this minute, my plans are these [in order]-
- Go to Pennsylvania with my boyfriend Bobby's family for one week,
- When I get back, find a job as quickly as possible.
- Make preperations to move the hell out of this house.
- Complete 1 year of living on my own, then moving onward to college.
- -Unknown from there.
Yeah so that's all I've got so far. I know I WANT to go to college, but not right away. I do not know what I want to be when I 'grow up', but I'm hoping a year's worth of real life experience will give me time to figure it out. I feel like, since I've started this blog, I've grown up a lot. Not all the way, no no, but quite a bit. I like to think I have a whole hell of a lot of learning to go.
Well, I'd like to start posting more periodically again. It's theraputic for me, even if no one reads it, just to get out all these scrambling thoughts and out them to rest here.
Until tomorrow, -Danielle
